i am a dick

i am so resentful towards boyfriend right now. first off, he's taken to the ways of my exes and made me feel pretty amazingly shitty about myself lately. one thing he said, i may never shake. but he is wonderful and i do love him. and he is the man i'm going to marry, but i am fucking pissed. i don't know if he's stress over the ring or that i'm having a hard time lately and that's hard for him in turn, but he needs to buck the fuck up and talk about it or shut the fuck up as in projecting via other means... and i mean, MEAN. and then there's the fact that i HATE my job. that i work for the stupidest, most retarded, passive-aggressive, identity crisesed, micro-managing fuckface on the face of the planet. who also makes me work 8am to 5pm with no exceptions even when there is nothing the fuck to do because he has no fucking life so he takes it out on everyone else... well, anyone he can force to be a subordinate. all the while boyfriend is off getting paid at least 3 times what i make with all the flexibility and benefits in the world doing a job he loves and when he talks about it, it feels like he's rubbing it in, but i'm just being a bitch because i'm miserable as fuck. and then i come home and cook and he never finishes the fucking dishes, which was the initial agreement until (read: if) he ever gets a fucking portable dishwasher. and then he's a fucking martyr all the goddamn time about how he mopped the floors or some shit. eat a dick, dude. eat a dick. please know, if you've kept on with my senseless, self-serving dribble that i'm venting. boyfriend is fucking amazing or i wouldn't be marrying him, but seriously- SERIOUSLY- grow a fucking pair. why do i have to baby the fuck out of him and he gets all pansy ass on shit that he does to me as well?!?!? overall, he is the bestbestbest, but this aggression will not stand, man. i hate most of my life.